Back At It

Hello again,

I have missed you. I apologize for having disappeared for so long but this thing called college and work got in the way. Nevertheless, I am back and staying here for good. I will try to be as consistent as possible but I'm sure that won't be a problem because I have tons of time on my hands as of right now. Just a quick life update, I graduated from SJSU this past December and it feels great. I can't tell you how awesome it feels. No homework... No deadlines. No more exams! So what have I been doing since then? Well I've also been interning for this really awesome magazine called Content Magazine. I've been getting a lot of experience with social media, portrait photography and learning about magazine production, editorial shoots and so much more. It's been pretty great, especially when I get to meet so many talented people in the creative scene here in the South Bay. It's been a real blessing and I have so much thank my coworkers and boss for that. I've also gotten the privilege to be the social media manager for a boutique in downtown Campbell called Redemption. I've been photographing their products and working with different models and bloggers to showcase the clothing the boutique has to offer. It is the cutest little shop with just about everything you've ever wanted AND everything is made all here locally in California. You'll feel like your money is actually going towards somebody's dream rather than some huge corporation like Forever 21, you know? As far as my personal life, I have had a crazy past few months with a lot of emotional crap I wasn't expecting to deal with especially in the middle of the semester. I'm not sure if I mentioned this but I was taking 5 classes, working 2 part time jobs, doing my internship with Content, and managing the social media for Redemption all at the same time. This last semester was a tough one.

As I said, I wasn't expecting to deal with so much emotional shit but it happened anyway. I was betrayed by someone I thought was supposed to love me and I was also diagnosed with hypothyroidism which meant I had to start taking medicine every day. It wasn't fun. My mom actually has hypothyroidism and it basically just means your metabolism is a bit slower and you may experience unexpected weight gains, hair loss, stress, fatigue etc. Honestly, all those symptoms were definitely happening but I didn't really find them to be because of hypothyroidism but because I was dealing with so many things at once. I'm normally a really positive and optimistic person and so for me to even think about what I was like a month or two ago is kind of bizarre. I hit an all time low. I was distrustful, I wasn't confident in myself or in my ability to do anything. I broke down every day because I couldn't believe what had happened to me. When I got diagnosed for hypothyroidism, my doctor offered me therapy sessions that were free through my insurance. Honestly, I didn't really think much of it but decided to give it a go anyway and it was probably one of the best decisions of my life. I highly encourage anyone dealing with emotional shit to consider going to therapy. It wasn't one of those experiences that "saved my life" but the kind of experience that helped me get back on my feet. It was nice being able to confidently talk to this therapist about my situation and they guided me in overcoming it. Therapy helped me become myself again. A couple of things I learned? You don't need a relationship to make you happy. Only you can make yourself happy. Rough life experiences suck but it's all about how you view them. While experiences shape who you are, they shouldn't have to define you. Something to always remember is that people who do shitty things have absolutely nothing to do with you. There is no justification for being mistreated and you should never point the finger at you or think that you caused it to happen. 

Anyway, so that's what I've been up to. While everything might sound dandy since graduation, I actually have been stressing out a little. Now that I don't have one of my part time jobs anymore I have to put my big girl pants on and find an actual job. A career! I've been working my butt off for the last few days updating my website, LinkedIn, Behance, and designing a new resume. I'm a little restless and feeling stressed. BUT, I am confident that I will find something soon. I better... your girl needs to pay those bills. (Haha!) 

Until next time,